I'll feel a little safer.

Nothing screws up my creativity faster than getting bad news. I need to learn to stay balanced or recover quicker when those trying times come. I lost a whole day of productivity to something from my past that is trying to come back and bite me. And it's not even anything I can do anything about. The ball is not in my court as it were. So I need to let this go. And everytime I think I have there goes my mind to pick it apart all over again.
I made scalloped potatoes with ham for dinner. They smell really good. Because of the bad news this morning I lost my apetite until mid afternoon. Then I knew I better eat or keel over and hope the food didn't go right through me again. I was okay after lunch and a nap but now that it is after 9 PM I am very hungry. So as soon as the potatoes cool a bit I am going to eat.
I tried to focus on beauty today. I got a little knitting done and took some photos. But for the most part I didn't get nearly as much done as I did yesterday because my mind just wants to worry. I wish it would stop worrying already. At least I won't be alone tonight which is a good thing. And once I eat maybe I'll feel a little safer.